Hope is Gone

I just thought he needed some time to think about us.  I'm beginning to think that I'm wrong.  He's never coming back.  I feel so tired, depressed and lonely.

Alone Again in 2013

After 8 years of living together, I got dumped.  It's funny how life turns out.  Christmas eve we were together and happy.  In fact I was so happy I asked him when will we marry.  Before I knew it, I was spending new year's eve as a single woman.  The idea was never new to us.  He was the one who told me that he wanted to marry me and I always believed him.  I don't really know why he changed his mind.  My only guess is that he has the Chandler.  Remember Chandler in friends?  Chandler was commitment phobic.

I spent new year's eve crying.  I was really hurt and felt cheated.  Eight years down the drain for nothing.  Earlier today, he moved out all his stuff and I was left with 2 cats.  He left me two pages worth of his explanation for dumping me.  Apparently, he felt he was unworthy of me.  It's a bunch of BS.  The last time he talked to me he said, and I quote, "kahit anong mangyari, hindi kita pakakasalan."  roughly translated, it means, "whatever happens, I will never marry you."

My blog is not intended for all my sorrows and pain.  It just so happen that I got dumped on new year.  

Maru and OJ are my cats, just in case you're wondering about the blog name.

The start of 2013 sucks for me but I'm very positive that good things are coming.